The Broken Wall

Drops of the whisky hung in air…

Falling slowly on my fingers,

Moving to a rhythm of chaos,

Moist of the night kissing my wrist…

My hands clenched the metal,

My fingers held against the glass,

The dress slipping off of me…

Moist of the night creeping inside me…

I swerved to the right…

A screech breaking the silence…

The slow moment crashed into,

I could see the wall now…

Rush of the windscreen through skin

Headlights shining on…

It’ll be over soon

He held me still by the arms…

Running his hands through my hair…

Bringing them down to my lips…

A tear crawling to his fingers…

His body pushing me farther behind,

His lips on my neck,

I tried to scream,

I knew he couldn’t hear me now.

Tearing my innocence,

With his bare hands and skin,

He looked at me for a moment,

He held me close, so still.

Lost in his trance state,

He forced himself on me,

The curtains flying to the breeze,

Red covered my wounds.

I stopped trying to run away…

I moved to scars as I held him…

I heard him smile…

‘Don’t rape me’, another tear fell…

He had whispered to me then,

‘It’ll be over soon’

It isn’t… It never will be…

What I didn't tell you

All you know is... All I told you

Here's a few not so wise things I learnt in this crazy, smiling mess of a life... I say them out loud... Only cos I cannot take them back then...

Things that scare you are the ones worth talking about the most...

Never say no to a new experience... 

Be promiscuous with your experiences... Not with your mind

Want! Never need!

Be honest with your opinions... Those who stick around are the ones meant to

There should only be one reason to be with someone for life... Love

Love is what you define for yourself

Your body is not a temple... It is a gift!

Timing is nothing... Intention is everything

The world needs more kindness and less money

Know the world around you... Even more so the world inside you

Say the things you think without sugarcoating

Define your standards... Stop following the ones they defined

People will try to control you... Let them... Then let go

Travel makes you more open than anything else

Travel is a way of life... Not an easy one

Figure out who you are before you figure who you want

Everything is a choice

Be the absolute version of yourself... No customizations!

Lines of Sanity

Specks of old air fill the breeze,

While she dances on her naked toes…

I light the cigarette as she stops to look,

Her eyes looking at me like cold death.

I lurk in the corner of the room,

As she changes the song again,

Another moment lost to destiny,

Letting go of all control, I smoke.

I hold her by the waist,

As she looks around for him,

I let go and leave the room,

‘It is everyone and no one’, she smiles.

Daybreaks of being alone now,

Wanting to be feel lonely again,

A light strand of sanity to keep me awake,

Holding this version for another moment.

From all they know…

To all she doesn’t…

From an indifferent moment…

To feeling nothing…

Shadow of a Non-Believer

Bright morning enveloping the night,

Shades of dark lost in silver clouds,

I look into the mirror, still…

My reflection joined by pieces...

Not the sum of what they think of me,

Not the kind of food I eat,

Not the number of clothes I have,

Not the people I spend time with.

                                             

I lie on my bare back, my eyes closed…

Looking into the abyss of the looping sky…

Memories of changing shades over time…

Found in the cold corners of my mind…

Not the money I have,

Not the movies I watch,

Not the music I hear,

Not the way I speak.

I believe…

 All you know is…

All I told you.

Gravity

The lights were dimmed now,

The stage was empty, she was alone.

Throwing her shoes to the corner,

She tip toed to the centre of the stage.

Music filled the room,

Words moving in her veins,

She raised her hands and danced,

She defied gravity in her thoughts.

Not a soul looked at her,

Not a soul could look at her,

Dancing on the edge of the wall,

Floating with the chill of the breeze.

The city lights looked the same,

The society now beneath her,

The lust of love breathing in her,

She looked up at the stars.

Sealing her place amongst them,

She took a step and flew away,

Her mind plummeting head first,

Her lips moving to the song.

Love for another moment,

Love for another experience,

Love for another lust,

Love to prove gravity wrong,

Greed, my only Sin...